Bubble Wow Adventures

While I am away Tuesday evenings for a weekly restaurant gig, my Mom graciously takes up the slack in the transportation and childcare department, enjoying my family in my stead;  Bless her.  To my delight she gives me reviews on the happenings in my absence, which makes being away from them even richer.

Here -for my enjoyment- is today’s account of last night’s adventures:

2013-02-06 GLO MJK Aprons

“You be my lovey and I’ll be your lovey”

we are chinese if you please

Yesterday’s Adventures with Gavin and Miles:

Hid in Liz office, Katie extracted Gavin 10 minutes early.  He greeted me sweetly and said “I haven’t finished my pop-up!”  So I said go back and finish and I’ll wait, knowing that probably meant two boys, not one.

Boys had many logistical questions requiring me to explain every detail of the situation, but when given the choice Miles elected to go with Gavin and me for ice cream rather than Aquarium.   Gavin said “ice cream might be a bad idea because we are freezing.”  He has trouble keeping his coat on at the right moments so no doubt he’s colder than Miles in general.

So once both were coated up (Miles puts on and zips his own coat in an instant – “my mommy teached me”) and buckled in, pop-up projects put away in backpacks, we went to the destination I had in mind, the neat-looking shop called “Concord Street Cafe” that has “ice cream and sushi” painted on the building.  However, the Chinese proprietor had no ice cream (“it’s very cold”) and a cash only policy, so that was dead on arrival.  Two doors down (probably same proprietors) was House of Chang, so we invaded.

The place was empty midafternoon and an old Chinese lady talking on the phone would not look up or acknowledge us behind her “wait to be seated” sign until I started for a table.  From then on she alternated between her phone chat and shushing the boys.  The more she shushed the louder I let them wax.

However, a friendly young Chinese lady with very little English fell in love with Gavin at first sight and couldn’t do enough for us or keep her hands off Gavin.  We had scallion pancakes, chicken fingers, ginger ice cream, and she showered us with fortune cookies to the delight of the boys, and insisted on zipping up Gavin’s jacket when we left.  (I gave her a big tip.)  She asked if they were “brovahs” (much like ClaraJane) and they proudly said they were cousins and described all their other cousins and siblings for good measure.

The boys asked why the people looked “different” and I explained how popular Chinese restaurants are with most people, and we discussed the terms “Asian” as against “Chinese,” “Japanese,” etc.  They loved the elegantly folded napkins and recognizing them as a form of orgami wanted to know what the shape represented, although it was merely a pyramid, nothing exotic like a crane.

The bathroom was nice and well-used by the boys, with sensor-controlled water and soap.  The door was very heavy and to prevent “getting locked in” I was required to be inside the bathroom but “don’t look.”  Miles initiated his usual conversation about “what if we had to live in this room” or “how many people could get in if we had a birthday party here”, a theme whenever we find ourselves in a small space such as the vestibule of my house or a bathroom in a bookstore or restaurant.

Much discussion of upcoming birthdays, party themes, relative ages, and the like.

We reloaded in the Fit and returned to Tobin to meet Amanda at 4:25.  We chatted while the boys wrestled in the way back.  Toward the end they embraced and we heard one of them say “you be my lovey and I’ll be your lovey.”  Gavin invited Amanda to visit “my new house.”

Gavin and I then drove to my house while having a discussion about generations and whether I would be alive when he is a grownup, and we agreed probably not but wouldn’t it be interesting when he has children of his own and his mom and dad will be the grandparents, and how when his kids have children he will be the grandpa.  And how I would like to meet his children but probably wouldn’t still be alive, but he would remember me and the good times we had.

He said then the sweetest thing anyone’s ever said to me:  “We will still love you even if you’re dead.”  And I said I would still love them, too, even though I was dead.

On Forest he wore his new apron for making hot chocolate (his idea) and painting bioluminescent sea creatures. Gavin asked for more information about the “rich people” who lived in my  house before it was made into condos and chatted about high ceilings, given he has the highest ceilings of anyone.

I asked to choose some of the books to read when it came time for the reading nook and we laughed over “Giraffe and a Half”, while CJ shuttled between being in bed with Dada and helping Gavin and I read, and Gavin ate the ice out of my martini.  Then I tucked them all in bed and started down the hall and CJ chased me down for one more hug.

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Sunday Brunch Attire

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The CJ Gambol

ClaraJane “Gamols” at her Big Brother’s School.

(Think she is ready to go there?  She does!)

[36 secs]

Thanks again to Great Aunt Jane Ann for the wonderful Owl Outfit!
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Infiltration Two

On this morning, as with so many mornings, there were interlopers in my bed.

Sometimes (ok, a lotta times) you just gotta snap photos like, to prove it’s for real.  Like pinching yourself in a dream. (Or make a video.)

Could this –these stunning, beautiful children– really be happening in my life? 

(“Yes they are child,” whispers the breeze, “But not for long.”)

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Somebody’s been sleeping in MY bed

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Who, ME?

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Yes YOU, Cindy Lou Who

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Peut-etre un peu petit dejeuner en lit, Maman?

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En Lit Ensemble.

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Cher Frere

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The Royal Bed Jester

 Oh how I will miss these days!

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Oh and PS: I’d like to thank The Academy –by which I mean My Husband–for making this all possible.

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Gavin’s New “Do”

Perfectly accessorized by “Lovey Bear.” 

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Huzzah!

In other news, this is my first post in ages. Presently alas, “Life is Good at Grandma’s” here in NC, where we’ve enjoyed some much anticipated R&R/decompression to top off this gloriously challenging year.  Looking forward to sharing more priceless material throughout 2013 & beyond.  (AND afore for that matter, as there is much to be enshrined retrospectively as well.)

In the meantime, wishing Peace, Love, Health and Fulfillment to us ALL as the years tick over into yet another number along our Sacred (even when mundane!) Journey.

Thanks for the privilege of letting  ours intertwine together, whether a lot or just a little bit.

Fondly,

CircusKitchen Jennifer

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Do It Anyway

What an inspirational, emboldening gem by “Ben Folds Five,” as performed in this video with Jim Henson’s “Fraggle Rock.”   (To be stored and used the next time you need to get over a big hump or just want a boost of motivation.  Lyrics below.)  YOU CAN DO IT!

[5 mins, 42 secs] 

You might put your love and trust on the line
It’s risky, people love to tear that down
Let ’em try
Do it anyway
Risk it anyway

And if you’re paralyzed by a voice in your head
It’s the standing still that should be scaring you instead
Go on and
Do it anyway
Do it anyway

There will be times you might leap before you look
There’ll be times you’ll like the cover and that’s precisely why you’ll love the book
Do it anyway
Do it anyway

Tell me what I said I’d never do
Tell me what I said I’d never say
Read me off a list of the things I used to not like but now I think are ok

Sometimes it’s not subjective: wrong and right
Deep down you know it’s downright wrong but you’re invincible tonight
So you
Do it anyway
It’s done
You did it

Despite your grand attempts the chips are set to fall
And all the stories you might weave cannot negotiate them all
Do it anyway
Be honest, anyway

So tell me what I said I’d never do
Tell me what I said I’d never say
Read me off a list of the things I used to not like but now I think are OK
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Woah woah woah woah

It’s gonna be so very hard to say
And watch the trust and joy all drain from her innocent face
But you must
Do it anyway
It sucks but
Do it anyway

Call it surrender but you know that that’s a joke
And the punchline is you were never actually in control
But still, surrender anyway

Tell me what you said you’d never do
Tell me what you said you’d never say
Read me off that list of things ’cause I used to not like you
But now I think you’re OK
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Woah woah woah woah

Everybody knows that you just gotta do it anyway

Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway

Cause you don’t do nothing to avoid self punishment
You won’t do nothing
You won’t feel nothing
Gotta
Do it, do it, do it anyway
Ah
Do it anyway

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A Speck of Harmony

Life with kids is a meteor shower of experiences.  A 24-hour All-You-Can-Eat-7-Layer -Chocolate-Ice-Cream-Cake Buffet.  Trying to document it (as I am always compelled to do) is… well, ridiculous.  But every once in a while you can preserve a cherry on top here, or perhaps a sprinkle there.

On this night, towards the end of what was chaotically trying -as ever- to be “supper,” ClaraJane got down from the table, crapped in her diaper, gave me a blank look, then turned and marched herself to the bathtub; climbing up before I could even get her clothes off.   Parenting is rarely that easy, but every once in a while you catch a break and just quietly follow the genius of your children.  What ensued is this Moment of Zen, this Speck of Harmony that I happened to catch like a piece of sparkler dust off a comet’s tail.

Before becoming a parent you would never imagine that a simple moment of peaceful bliss could be… so… scintillating.

[37 seconds]

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Nothing Enlightened About Shrinking

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

~Marianne Williamson / Nelson Mandela (depending on whom you ask)

Like Children Do

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How do you say… YES!

Wouldn’t you know the very day I did that last post (one week ago), I actually couldn’t find my phone for most of the day, even as I waited for The Call.  Then stupidly I found it in a logical place (still attached to the charger in the car).  It was past 4:30pm on Friday and Mr. Sal from the bank had already tried to reach me, twice.  I called him back.  He had good news.  Our loan was approved!!!

I told him I had expected to fall to my knees and cry no matter what he said (like, either “yes,” or “no”). Instead I was just tingling all over.  Stunned I think. Happy.  And stunned.

And so I have remained. This week we waited for the actual commitment letter to come in the mail. Yesterday it did, and here it is:

They found the $olution!

Amazing, right?  The small amounts, the low rate, and that it is enough to purchase our very own first HOME.  (Yes it’s a weird “Soft-Second” loan with an interest-only component, but -like other aspects of this whole deal- what a perfect gift horse it is.)  With condo fees, property tax and insurance, our monthly housing costs should be under $1100; over $1000 less than we were paying before!

To boot, this week we *also* got our deposit back from our old apartment, with interest!  This alone might cover up to half of our anticipated closing costs:

Hard to believe we were paying over $2K/mo on our income.

I know it’s unusual -even frowned upon- to share such financial details publicly.  However, (it’s my blog and) I’m doing it to not only celebrate (and convince myself this is actually happening), but also to shine light into what in our society is normally shrouded in secrecy: MONEY.  And how it works.  (Because, it does!  It actually does jobs.)  I don’t think there’s anything shameful in talking about money, AND I believe we would all be a lot healthier financially if it weren’t so taboo.  How is one supposed to grow up prepared, responsible and successful without any discussions or education on The $ubject?  Personally I cringe when I think of some of the choices  I made -or failed to make- over my lifetime; the amounts thoughtlessly filtered through my hands, and the opportunities missed.  (Not to detract from the priceless experiences too; Travel, and other extravagant things like rent and food.)

It’s not that life is all about money, it’s that we need money to live (with dignity).  So really it’s no less important than health, love, nutrition, vocation; all subjects about which we otherwise educate ourselves naturally.  For some reason Personal Finance it is NOT normally included in our mainstream educational spectrum; you have to seek it out.  (That way big banks and corporations -those entities for whom life really IS only about money- can rape us more easily when we are ignorant and uneducated… just milling along, living beyond our means and paying our minimum balance while they use the profits from our fees and interest to buy legislature to give themselves more money!  But I digress into a rant for another post.)

Lastly, as I adjust to this new reality, sailing into our sunset of increased financial viability, still shuddering from recent memories of literally shaking down every last dollar in our pockets just to make rent, I want to say to my modest number of dear readers that I hope I have not offended anyone or made anyone feel bad.  About this new opportunity/reality I feel nothing but gratitude, humility and astonishment.  OK; excitement creeps in too.  Simply please know that also I broadcast our good fortune in hopes to inspire and invite you along.

And if you want to know where I draw the inspiration for these cajones, please stay tuned for my very next post (after which I promise to return to some of my cuter favorite subjects).

In love and light (and money, money, money, ha ha ha),

Yours.

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Please Mr. Underwriter, Please

Find a way!

So… because rent was crushing us, earlier this year I determined that my #1 goal this year was to lower our housing costs. Well, it’s been a challenging journey and a demanding experience so far, but -POSSIBLY- we are now poised tantalizingly close to BUYING our FIRST HOME.

It’s an “affordable” condo that is being offered through the City of Cambridge First Time Home Buyer’s Assistance Program. It is new construction in and old church that is one of many amazing projects of the incomparable Just-A-Start Corporation.

All of this sounds amazing, right? Right. We have been on this incredible and challenging journey since April. Elaborate application and vetting processes; -ESPECIALLY because our income situation is so weird (my being self-employed with fluctuating income, Paul’s income only starting to increase since losing his career to cancer, and more).

Now, at last, after financing with our first promising bank FELL THROUGH a couple weeks ago, we are literally at the brink of hearing back from our current prospective lendor (Cambridge Trust Company)… like… TODAY. Or not. Maybe next week. Who knows.

All we want is the Holy Grail: the bank’s Committment Letter.
All that is at stake is a PLACE for the four of us to live, and ALL our money.

Did I mention we already moved out of our apartment, and all our stuff is in storage? We have, and it is. We are incredibly lucky enough to be in a wonderful temporary housing situation (with another wonderful transitional housing situation ahead of us as we wait for both the construction to finish AND our financing to come through). We are healthy, happy, alive, engaged in the world and together, with NO COMPLAINTS!

Yet our future hangs in the balance as some elusive Underwriter named Peter evaulates our materials and decides whether the bank will help us or not.

Yesterday we even got to tour the place. As much as I dread dreaming too much of moving in to the place, it is hard not to. And no matter WHAT happens, the dream is beautiful and it is real.

So here is a video slideshow of our tour yesterday. It started and ended with the kids playing in the park next to the condo in question. So at a minimum here were some beautiful images captured of the kids -as ever. The song is “Revolution” by Dr. John. Find a solution, Mr. Underwriter, please!

Immaculate Place [2mins, 57 secs]

Find a $olution!!!

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