Just A Little Bit

I admit it;  I have it ALL.  I get it.  I mean, if you know me, you know I pinch myself every day in near disbelief over how good we have it.  Especially now that we have the HOME.  And what’s IN the home?!?  Only everything I ever wanted or could have ever hoped for.  FAMILY.  MY family.  Not one but TWO beautiful children.  STUNNERS actually.  Healthy, bright, loved, loving, secure, you name it.  We LAUGH almost daily over the level to which we are able to meet and exceed their needs, even their wants.  Not that it’s easy, but it is -at times- ridiculous. (To wit:  today after bath, my not-yet-two-year-old daughter still had a bit of ennui.  So she took me by the hand to the chair that rotates and said, “‘Pin!”  So I spinned her around for a while.  And then she -generously identifying her own needs for me- said, “Bubble!”   So next she is running around frolicking in a veritable shower of bubbles, naked of course.   And she was happy.  Duh!)

Am I bragging?

Am I bragging?

And who is this “We?”  Me and my *husband.*  Yes, him.  The Big Guy.  Tall Paul.  Big Kahuna Man.  Chief Enchilada in my love and domestic life.  The most suitable life partner I could have ever asked for.  The one whose equanimous nature perfectly compliments my… ahem, sometimes rocky one.  And gives everything to my children I ever dreamed; real, deep, true attention, care and love!

Am I complaining?

Am I complaining?

YET!  Yet.  I also admit; just a little bit -and god forgive me if I am complaining- today, just a smidge, I feel… (ouch)… a weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bit sorry for myself.  There.  I said it.

Please God forgive me if I am doing either.

Please God forgive me if I am doing either.

Why?  Well, this.  I get that it is no longer special for the woman to be the breadwinner in the family.  And that I struck the jackpot with my careerAnd that I struck the jackpot with my epitome of a Super Dad in a partner.  But -waaaaaah!- that means they get to go do the fun stuff while I’m off to work! (Even IF I enjoy my job.)
Here they are, moments ago, loading up, to take the BIKE to the TRAIN to the COUNTRY to their COUSINS’ weekend home to PLAY in the WOODS and the POND with EACH OTHER and the little DOGS too!  (OK, not so little!)

Either way, no matter; time for work!

Either way, no matter; it’s off to work for me.

So I have to blog about it.  And show this amazing beauty and wonder that is my healthy, beautiful, lucky, lucky, beautiful *flamly.*  Wallow, relish, publish, repeat.

Now, where did I put my cape??

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performing artist, mom, wife, daughter, sister, aunt, niece... just a regular extraordinary person
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5 Responses to Just A Little Bit

  1. Mary Margaret says:

    Good clear-eyed analysis. Yes you have it all, including going off to your exciting, unique, self-created job, secure in the knowledge your kids are in the priceless care of a loving PARENT. And you earned these wonders, built this situation, brick by brick. It’s no accident. Take a bow.

    A brief pity-party now and then is part of the human condition. It’s okay! You get over your feelings by acknowledging them, indulging them for a bit. Then pull up your socks and get on with it.

    Thanks for the beautiful photos of the O-Flamly send-off. P.C., all of them, collectively and singly.*

    BTW isn’t your girlbabychild “not quite 2”? Not 1.

    (*Don’t feel sorry for the “unwanted baby sister” — look where she gets to sit in the bicycle train!!!)

  2. Kathy Ziegler says:

    good stuff!

  3. I love watching you count your blessings.

  4. paysonroadfarm says:

    I don’t know what made me think of you, but I looked you up online. And I found you! You’re not hard to find 🙂 This is Piper, the tragically quiet introverted teenaged runaway who once lived downstairs from you for a short time, with a much older room mate of yours (who thought he was a musical prodigy) in Brighton.
    You made such an impression on me, Jenny. I know we had “friended” on facebook years ago when I still used it, but I don’t know if I ever made it a point to tell you that. You live big. I have always admired that.
    I wanted to say congratulations- you do have it all! I recently became Mommy to a beautiful and healthy girl, Suzanne, born on Halloween. This is the best stuff on earth, this Mommy stuff! This Family stuff! It’s what life is all about.
    Glad to see you’re doing so well, you deserve it 😀
    -P

    • Piper! How stupendously awesome to hear from you. I remember us friending on FB but I hardly use FB. Love your blog! Love that you are still farming. CONGRATULATIONS on your baby girl Suzanne; she is beautiful! And thanks for all your input. Of COURSE I remember you. And yes, you were quiet, but so self-posessed and incredibly precocious (and not just b/c of who you were hanging out with). I also remember catching whiffs of your beautiful singing voice at times. I certainly hope you are still doing that. Anyway, this is great. Yes, what life’s all about. So glad we are connected again! ❤

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